I mentioned that quit smoking, and it's been 6 months now:
CONs: People around me got sick. My good pal Ilana passed away just over a week ago. My heart aches every day and I can only imagine it will do so whenever I think of her. It breaks my heart to see my sister so sad, and my mother, and all my friends who are going through this loss around me. I am mostly sad for her wonderful husband, her 2 sons and her family. Ilana has been featured in this very popular blog before.
My good friend/co-worker's daughter also lost a battle with cancer. Just one month ago. She was exactly my age. She has 3 kids. I can't begin to image what my pal is feeling, or how hard each and every day must be. She's coming back to work next week- and I will be grateful to be able to once again she her on a daily basis. I also went through some hard, personal times. In my own life, my relationship fell apart. It was March when it really came to a head, and it was decided we would separate.
I was a mess. I could not eat. I did not sleep well. I drank a lot. But during these times I had the most wonderful people who were there for me. My family and friends reminded me of all the support I had. Strangely enough, C was one of them, even. Of course, we gave each other space and had our terrible moments. But we often just hung out as pals- and seeing as though we resided together until May 1st- it made cohabitation better than tolerable. People told me I would come out stronger and better than ever. I am getting there. I still miss him being in my life daily, but of course I do! More than anything, I realize that he was my best bud for almost 10 years. It's a pretty big change. I hope to come out of this with some kind of friendship in the end. I have come to realize that I need to live for me. I lost myself for a while there. I don't blame him, or even us. The problem was not just my love life. I think my life in general grew kind of stagnant in it's own way. I let it. I am ready to live. And I know someday I'll be ready to love. But for now, I'm loving myself, this city (and my great new neighborhood!) and my buds. KZ
*Insert photos of just a few of the people i love*
That is me! hmm OK so what's new in like a dog's age? Well it is coming up on "Winter" here in Toronto:
Anyone dreaming of a White Christmas better keep dreaming. Although I guess anything is possible. What else? Oh well THIS happened:
I missed that last stair and went RIGHT down. Twisty McTwisterson. Went to the walk-in clinic and the doc said it was not broken. I never did get that x-ray though, and I am still limping about a tad. Perhaps I see some physio in my future! Corey has been hard at work on his ART as there is a shindig this Sunday at the SUPERJET:
Should be fun. Last year was pretty epic. We have Michael Coughlan coming in to head up the MUSIC. And I will be making SNICKY SNACKS a-plenty!
Hmm what else? OH YEAH, that thing I did. QUIT SMOKING!
Today was one for the history books, 'round the workplace. My dear friend Joel has left the building.... literally. he is moving on to bigger and better things and I am VERY excited and proud of him. It leaves me in the dust though- one more person I am used to seeing DAILY who has flown the coop. Joel and I worked together for 7 years. We're both turning 37 next month. That means that we have been 9-5 comrades for 18.92% of our LIVES (who's counting?) I first introduced this blog's 1.5 readers to Joel back when it began. We were freshly 30 years old and looking like this:
We've grown up a lot since then........... riiiight?
Does my head look creepily Photoshopped onto the second image?
For Joel's final send-off we got some friends together last night.Co-workers from the past and present showed up for some fun.
He came. He saw. He conquered.
He will be missed. Also he's just going to a new company down the street so we can still have lunch. And who am I kidding I will probably see him at least every week or two. PHEW!